Already a month?

Carl is a month old!! Seriously, a month old!

The past month has been super exciting and has been quite a learning experience.

I have learned that everything I thought I would do or be as a mother has been thrown out the window. I knew nothing and I am now learning somethings. And who is my teacher? My Baby Carl. He is teaching me how to be his mom. As soon as I realized that things became easier.

You see I am a perfectionist and an overachiever so I wanted to be the all out perfect mom. What that meant to me was; breastfeeding would come naturally, and I would love every second.

HAHAHA!! Yeah right. Breastfeeding is amazing, but it has not come without assistance. I never took into account that I might be too much for my baby. Thank God for nipple shields. I have heard nipple shields get a bad rap, but who cares. It is working for us and frankly he could stay on it until he's 12! LOL! But seriously it has helped tremendously and as he gets bigger it's a bit easier for him

Now loving every second of motherhood has not quite happened either. I get tired and I have realized that is okay. I like going on runs and to school without him, and I have learned that is okay.

The biggest lesson I have learned thus far is I cannot compare myself to other mothers. Why? Because they are not Carl's mom. I am. Loving him, listening to him, and being there for him is all I need to do.


Before I end this post, let me share with you what has been fascinating for me and John this first month.

1. His poop! The noises it makes is quite hilarious. We are just fascinated by how loud and how much he can poop. I am sure in time the novelty will wear thin on us.

2. His pee! He is a pee monster! There are days that every time we go to change him he will pee on his face or us. And the distance his pee has is pretty amazing!

3. Watching him sleep. He does not like to be swaddled he stretches and stretches until he get's himself out of it. Afterwards he is perfectly content and likes to put his hands over his face. He just makes the most adorable faces and poses when he sleeps.

4. Tummy time. He works really hard to lift his head and in the process his back legs will lift up too, so essentially he looks like he is break dancing!

5. He is smart! He is great at distinguishing who Mommy is and who Daddy is. He knows how Mommy feeds him, so when I am at school he does a great job taking a bottle from Daddy. But taking a bottle from Mommy is out of the question. He gives me a weird look then turns his face into my chest. His face says, "Give me the boobie!"

So the first month has passed. He is getting big and developing quite a personality!
The journey ahead of us is going to be amazing and I know I just need to buckle up and enjoy the ride!!