J~A~C: September 2009

So I feel like I am already a bad mother. Why do I say this? I haven’t really been journaling or focusing too much on my pregnancy. I obviously know I am pregnant and I am aware because of things I stopped or started doing. But I feel like I am not making a big deal of it like other people have so far. But after Friday I feel that has changed.

Friday marked the beginning of my twelfth week. I am now in my second trimester and I only have 28 weeks or less to go!!! I didn’t realize what day it was until I looked at my baby ticker on my blog. There it was: You are 12 weeks 0 days. You are in your 2nd trimester. 28 weeks left. I saw that at 5 pm right before I left work. In that moment everything seemed to stop. There it was; the first part of my pregnancy is over. The feeling was surreal, and now I feel a sense of urgency. There is so much I want to have done before the baby gets here. And I do need to move with a sense of purpose. If there is one thing I have learned in the past few years it is the fact that time goes by fast.

Here it is I guess it has hit me. I am going to be a mom! I am having a baby!! My belly is firm and growing and soon I will be able to feel it. All in one moment nothing else matters in the world except my child. Within my body God is creating a person, not just a body, but a person someone who will smile, laugh, and cry. Someone that might be an athlete, a writer, an actor, or a missionary; the possibilities are endless. I can look at me and John and get an idea of who they might be or what they might look like. But regardless the child inside of me will be an individual that will have its own purpose. God already has a path laid out for him and her. It will be our responsibility to guide and instruct him or her.

So there it is; our responsibility is great. It’s no longer about us. There is a child that God has given us responsibility of, our choices no longer just affect us but an innocent child that already trusts us and relies on us. I can’t put into words how excited, scared, and overwhelmed I feel. But all I can say is I love my baby.I am so excited for the next months ahead of me. Keep praying for us and our baby! And here is a pic for ya!

12 weeks (got a little bump, and thankful my butt still looks good, lol)

I have been super excited to write this blog for the last couple of months. And now here it is after much procrastination. As most of you know I am PREGNANT!!!! Writing those words seem so surreal for me. As most of you know John and I have been trying to conceive for a year and a half. It’s been a long year and half full of disappointments and questions. Along our journey I was diagnosed with endometriosis. I was glad to get a diagnosis but bummed to find out it could be hindrance in trying to conceive. After a long time of frustration a book of recommendation was made to me. Two of my FB friends recommended reading TCOYF (Taking Charge of Your Fertility). Abby told me after reading the book she got pregnant. I was a bit hesitant at first; I appreciated the encouragement and suggestion I just didn’t want to get my hopes up. Well sure enough I got pregnant immediately after reading the book!! The book gave me so much info that I just didn’t know. It’s amazing that I have been having my cycle for 14 years and it took one book to really explain everything to me, and I mean everything. Ovulation wasn’t just about days. This blog isn’t about TCOYF but here is the website http://www.tcoyf.com/. I recommend every woman reads this book!! AMAZING!!!

Now let me be honest I was reading the book around the time we conceived so I wasn’t even really thinking about it. I even told John that I thought it would be a good idea to wait until September to start trying again. So you can imagine my surprise when the doctor told me I was pregnant. This brings me to how I found out. The story doesn’t start off good so be prepared.

On July 30th I started feeling really bad. Not pukey bad but severe abdominal cramps. I could barely move that’s how bad the pain was and of course other things didn’t work just right if you know what I mean. So at 4 am on the 31st I had John take me to the emergency room. So they immediately took me back and took my blood and had me pee. Now honestly my cycle was due the next day so we started speculating that the pain was that and the reason it was so severe was because of my endometriosis. All I know is I wanted the pain to stop. While I was waiting on labs I slept and while I slept John went to the car and slept. I wake up to a tap on my shoulder and it is the doctor he takes a seat and says in a serious tone, “Well your labs came back and your pregnancy test is positive.” My response was, “Really? Ok”. After a year and a half of wanting this that was my response. Then my next immediate reaction was, “Oh my God is that what is causing my pain is there something wrong?” Then of course I called John and told him he needed to come back inside. When he came back he definitely had a look of worry he took my hand and asked what was up. I told him my labs came back and I tested positive for pregnancy. I will never forget the smile that broke out on his face. But unfortunately our happiness was replaced with worry. Is this new found pregnancy okay? So over the next 10 hours I had two different ultrasounds. Well the pregnancy was so early they weren’t able to tell anything. So I was released from the hospital and they scheduled me to come back the following Monday to get my blood drawn to test the hCG levels. Then I had to come back on Thursday for a follow up appointment and more labs.

Well that Thursday after all my labs and review of them the doctor looked at me and said, “Yes you are definitely pregnant and if you haven’t had any more problems I am assured things will progress nicely.” So there it is, that is how we found out we were pregnant! Definitely not the way I thought and I always had a different idea for how I would tell John but this is the way the cards played out. It turns out what sent me to the hospital in the first place was most likely food poisoning!! So in short, there you go, and you can expect blogs throughout the pregnancy and lots of pics!! Baby Driskill will join us April 9th, 2010!!