J~A~C: The 2nd Trimester is here!!!

So I feel like I am already a bad mother. Why do I say this? I haven’t really been journaling or focusing too much on my pregnancy. I obviously know I am pregnant and I am aware because of things I stopped or started doing. But I feel like I am not making a big deal of it like other people have so far. But after Friday I feel that has changed.

Friday marked the beginning of my twelfth week. I am now in my second trimester and I only have 28 weeks or less to go!!! I didn’t realize what day it was until I looked at my baby ticker on my blog. There it was: You are 12 weeks 0 days. You are in your 2nd trimester. 28 weeks left. I saw that at 5 pm right before I left work. In that moment everything seemed to stop. There it was; the first part of my pregnancy is over. The feeling was surreal, and now I feel a sense of urgency. There is so much I want to have done before the baby gets here. And I do need to move with a sense of purpose. If there is one thing I have learned in the past few years it is the fact that time goes by fast.

Here it is I guess it has hit me. I am going to be a mom! I am having a baby!! My belly is firm and growing and soon I will be able to feel it. All in one moment nothing else matters in the world except my child. Within my body God is creating a person, not just a body, but a person someone who will smile, laugh, and cry. Someone that might be an athlete, a writer, an actor, or a missionary; the possibilities are endless. I can look at me and John and get an idea of who they might be or what they might look like. But regardless the child inside of me will be an individual that will have its own purpose. God already has a path laid out for him and her. It will be our responsibility to guide and instruct him or her.

So there it is; our responsibility is great. It’s no longer about us. There is a child that God has given us responsibility of, our choices no longer just affect us but an innocent child that already trusts us and relies on us. I can’t put into words how excited, scared, and overwhelmed I feel. But all I can say is I love my baby.I am so excited for the next months ahead of me. Keep praying for us and our baby! And here is a pic for ya!